Well, let me go back to yesterday for just one minute…I didn’t have time to log a few things yesterday in a new post, so I want to make sure to do it now so I don’t forget.
There were several times yesterday where I would’ve just popped on, even just to scroll through things…the biggest one was lunch time. When I had Facebook, I would scroll through to see if anyone had posted anything new during lunchtime. Buzzfeed was my favorite thing to pop up. And then at about 3 pm and then again at about 4:30 (when our USPS and UPS people would pick up all of our stuff for the day). I wouldn’t like hang out on there, but for some reason, those were the times I would just pop on, even just to scroll…there was something cathartic about taking those two minutes in the middle of my day. I don’t know why I felt that way, there was rarely anything positive to read about.
The next point where it was a little bit difficult was laying on my couch in the evening. At the end of my day, before I put my phone away, I’d scroll through one more time; see who’s birthday’s were coming up, look for funny videos or cats…or kids, I suppose…lol. I’m beginning to see why it was making me feel so down. Each time I opened up the app or the website, I was opening myself up for the great possibility to see something terrible. Not only that, I was a slave to this “social” world where I could be “social” without interacting with anyone. Like a post here, laugh at another one, sad face this one…and it goes on. I cringe when I think of how much time I’ve wasted on there. Sure, it’s nice for things like catching up with old friends and setting up events (that’s probably one of my favorite features about Facebook…it was INCREDIBLY easy to set up events), but when I consider how often I get to connect with someone I haven’t spoken to in a really long time or the amount of events that I’ve created, it’s so minimal compared to how many awful things are on there for me to see. Also, throughout the day, I’d have my boss telling me all about what was going on with Drumpf, or Clinton or abortions…so, I really am not missing out on much except getting my own information. Plus, I really don’t mind the election stuff as much as I minded seeing with my own eyes, a video from a hospital in the baby room (whatever that’s called) where a nurse literally picked up the baby and started beating it…turned it upside down and swung it around like a tire swing sways from a tree. It was horrifying. And that’s just one thing I’ve seen! AND I can’t UN-see that!! It’s burned into my brain forever!! Never mind the poor animals that get abused all the time and people want me to share it to “spread the word” when in actuality, we’re just glorifying the person who did it and giving them the attention they clearly missed out on in childhood.
But I digress. Today is day 2. It was still weird waking up and not seeing a little bubble of notifications on my phone or to even click on the app. It’s also a little weird to get to work and not open up the webpage (for some reason whenever I go on to my work computer, I have an order of operations that I HAVE to go through or I feel weird…possibly a little bit of OCD…who knows). I’m missing that step in my morning. But I keep trudging along. I slept really really well last night. I’m wondering if it’s because I wasn’t bombarded by terrifying images and videos.
I’d be lying if I said that I don’t miss it altogether. I do, but I’m not sure if it’s that I really miss the application itself or if it’s that I miss having that step in my day or the content. I mean, I do miss seeing your kids and your pets and your funny memes…I enjoy a good meme. I know it’s only been a day, but I already feel like I have more time. Last night when I got home from work (before going to my strength and conditioning class), I had an hour and a half…during which time, I had to eat, get ready for class and do whatever else I wanted. Normally, I’d easily lose a half an hour or 45 minutes on Facebook. Yesterday, I put some things away, I did a few dishes, I put the sheets in the washer, I ate my dinner while I watched my favorite show…and actually watched it instead of just having it on in the background. It was pretty nice! And I felt less bad about being so tired when I got home from class that I didn’t want to do anything!
I’m looking forward to what today brings without the Facebook. So far, so good, though!
As always, thank you for taking the time to read! I hope you enjoy my experience! And if you have any comments, I’d love to read them!!
🙂
~Val